You unfailingly hear people preaching that things don’t always turn out the way you expect them to; however, I never paid any heed to them. Words just don’t have any weight to them unless you actually experience the situation for yourself. My parents are constantly nipping at my heels to not do this because it is too tedious or to not go there because it is disappointing – but all of this means nothing to me. You never know how something is until you do it or go there yourself. What if you told me that a certain restaurant is revolting, but in reality it has food that I would enjoy? I would have missed a wonderful dinner excursion just because you told me you didn’t like it. Advice is beneficial but should always be taken with a grain of salt.
College has been coiling around my head and squeezing my brains out for months and months. What should I do? Can I get in? Am I good enough? All these questions and thoughts started to become unbearable. I needed to do something to at least relieve a little bit of my unremitting headache. So during my study hall, I finally dragged myself to the College Resource Center to go seek out some much needed help.
One of the suggestions the college counselor gave me to make myself more “desirable” to colleges was to do a summer program or internship. I had to explain to her, though, that that wasn’t possible for me. I don’t have thousands of dollars to spend on a week camp at a college, and I need to spend my summer working so I can save up and actually be able to pay for college. I walked out of her office that day feeling more discouraged than when I walked in.
That night, she emailed me with a spectacular discovery: there was an opportunity for a paid internship for high school students going into science at FermiLab. I was so excited that I started jumping around my house and high-fiving me family. This was it! It was my ticket into Stanford! I didn’t hesitate to get my application together – writing essays, getting two teacher recommendations, and requesting a copy of my transcript.
March 15th was the day they were going to send out interview requests. No joke, I checked my email EVERY five minutes. With my luck, they didn’t send out the responses until three in the afternoon, so I was on edge all day. When the response came that I got an interview, a gigantic weight was lifted off my shoulders. On the actual day of the interview, I felt relaxed. I just took the SAT, and I was confident and proud with my work. I told myself that if I could conquer the SAT, I could conquer anything. As a result, I enjoyed the interview. The interview was a group interview, something I’d never done before, and I thought it was a neat experience. It was interesting hearing other people talk about their passions in science. When it was my turn to talk, I spoke with great vigor about my ardor for astronomy. It was something I could talk about and smile while doing. I felt very confident that I would get this internship.
Unfortunately, this is where I have to admit that sometimes it is worth paying attention to silly expressions.
You probably could have guessed by now that I didn’t get the internship, was disappointed, ate a whole pint of gelato in grief, and found a better internship? Well, it’s true that I didn’t get the internship, but, as they say, things don’t always go as you expect.
It turns out that I found the most spectacular job ever: working at an auction house! It has been an unbelievable experience so far, and I definitely will write about it soon. (Boy, do I have stories to tell!) And not only did I find a good paying job that I enjoy, I also got a full scholarship to an aerospace engineering camp for girls at the University of Illinois. I got an email about a week ago from my science teacher saying that this program got some last-minute, generous donations and will be offering three scholarships. It was a two day scramble to get my application sent out, but I got it in. I submitted it shaking my head, wondering if I wasted an hour of my life. It was a crapshoot. When I got the acceptance letter, I felt like I won the lottery!
Things are looking up now. I have a great job, no school right now, and I get to go to an awesome camp for a week in July. A few months ago, all of this would have never even been possible to imagine. Maybe it is worth it (once in a while) to listen to your elders when they ramble off sayings like “things don’t always turn out as expected.” I mean, if they exist, then they had to have come from somewhere, right?