I’ve always been the nostalgic type – because, you know, a seventeen year old girl just has so much to be wistful about – but I let regret consume me. I’ve constantly lain awake at night thinking about what I should have done or could have done or would have done differently. There were times I felt cemented in one event from the past. The world zoomed onward, and I was helplessly left standing there reliving the same mistakes again and again. I let regret run rampant within me, leaving my stomach to repeatedly fall victim to being twisted up in giant knots.
If you can’t tell by now, I was a nervous wreck. A complete spaz. Always worrying and contemplating and making myself sick. I had to do something, or I was going to die from stress before I reached twenty. So, I turned to music. I figured, why should I regret if I could listen to someone do it for me and not risk the health problems? I mean, at least those people get paid for it, right?
Anyway, I found these songs and listened to them over and over again because I thought the music fit my mood. But once I really listened to the words, I was captivated. The situations were all different, but the theme of regret was in each one. That’s what really spoke to me and would eventually change me. They taught me that living in the past won’t make the past any different because it can’t be changed. However, just because you aren’t in the past right now doesn’t mean you can’t look back once in a while and learn from it. I learned to reflect, not regret.
I hope you enjoy these songs, and I will greatly appreciate anyone who takes the time to listen to my music. Whether or not you care to listen, please check out the last song on the list because I believe it captures regret beautifully.